almost everything in my life right now is justtttt right, but there are a couple things missing. those things mean alot to me, and it is wayy way to hard to live without them. so i cant. and i KNOW for a fact things will get better, but im sick of waiting. its been long enough.

i don’t know what to do or say anymore because i am so blinded by “doing the right thing”, and doing what i want. it seems like doing what i want will get me what i want faster, which is what i want. but i dont think it is the right thing to do either. i love you SO muchh, its not even funny. and i can’t imagine my life without you. but lately ive been wondering, do you feel the same way? cause if you do then i dont know why you are treating me like this. i know i would never do that to you. so how is it so easy for you to do to me? i dont even need to ask myself do you love me because i know you do. and i know you so well, im so confused on how easy it is for you to be doing this. i can’t wait till we talk about everything because i have SO much to say. my life would be 5 times better by just doing that, and thats it.